Day 50
It's Tuesday August 5th, 2025 and I am scheduled to return back to work on the 11th. I feel like I should be counting down the days to return back to work instead of days past surgery! Yeah, day 50. I can feel the difference from a few weeks back compared to how I feel now. I can see some differences. I noticed in the past week or so that I've been trying to sleep on my stomach- I've been waking up on my side lately. Which is close to being on my stomach and the most comfortable for me to sleep on before I had my surgery. I will take that as a sign that I am healing just fine. 50 days out and I notice different pains- may be healing pains. I notice that if I hurt myself, like a sore muscle, if I massage it, it hurts instead of feeling better. Where there is pain in my legs or low back, where as before if I massaged it, it would generally feel relief, now feels like a burning or hurting pain. Just odd.
I am nervous about returning back, as I am still not up to par. I am subpar, but realize the importance of going back in and working. The positive for that is that I can do part time until I am fully up to speed. I don't know how long that will be. I know that once I complete my walk and come home to eat, I am right back on the bed resting right afterwards. That is what makes me nervous about my return to work. That I will be so tired which will lead to back pain and leg pain. I do know that if I stand or sit, or walk more than I am accustomed to, I feel more pain. I am hoping that my stamina increases as the days go by. I would like to be able to return to a full days work- or at least able to sit, stand, walk and take part of society as a normal person like I was a few years ago. It's been a few years since I've done a full 40 hours work week as before I needed to take some days off for flare up and low back, leg pain. I am thinking that I will give myself some grace to be able to return to that level of function, as it did take time to get to where I was at the time of surgery.
Life is busy and know that it's a long haul, and to keep focused on God and His word for you throughout your days and He'll keep you above the water. He'll keep you afloat. Just keep focused on His love for you and His endless mercy and grace. You know I prayed the Holy Rosary, I prayed it twice today. Life and the day feel so much better when I can do both in the same day. God calls us to His table and we are always welcome to sit a while with Him. Which I am always happy to do.
May God always bless and keep you and yours.
Rosemarie
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